Life is beautiful and unpredictable. One moment, you’re experiencing the best moments of your life, the next moment reality hits, like standing between fiction and reality.
I had the best time in San Francisco with Moose. But just like serendipitous moments and how they occur, the chapter is over, leaving me with beautiful memories and new experiences. Moose rewrote what I thought could happen, who I could have in my life and deserved, and left a footprint on my heart.
BITTERSWEET ENDINGS AND POSITIVE BEGINNINGS
With 10 days spent in San Francisco and Napa Valley, it changed my perspective of how you can really encounter someone who will teach you new experiences and show you the finer things in life, and how much someone can click with you with all of the signs pointing to “YOU DEFINITELY CAME INTO MY LIFE FOR A REASON” and sweep you off your feet. But also, with one swift change in life, it could all end.
Moose from San Francisco is moving to New York, and I learned for the first time ever, how to amicably end a relationship maturely, still putting a smile on their faces, wishing the other person the best in life because I want them to be happy. I learned that this is the time in our lives to pursue our dreams and that we should. I felt glad that he could go after his dreams and achieve what he wanted in life.
He has wanted to move to New York all his life, and I was not going to stop him. I think that is the ultimate level of caring for someone against your deepest desires to want everything to work out.
There was no wishy-washiness. It was a beautiful moment in life that surpassed all other beautiful moments in my 26 years of life (hopefully more beautiful moments to come) and I’ll never forget this. Two strangers from two different countries and parts of the world, pasta-making, enjoying a walk in a familiar/foreign part of town, going on romantic road trips, taking walks on the beach, enjoying picnics over wine and cheese, a wonderful stranger who swept me off my feet by doing all the little things and everything I ever dreamt of someone doing with me/for me. Moose was someone who learned the most intimate parts of me and met all the needs, and despite the distance was perfect but was not meant to stay because life decided the situation and timing is not right.
Moose taught me, to believe in fate, take a chance, learn to enjoy life and things you do…because why do things you don’t enjoy?
It well may be,
That we will never meet again,
In this lifetime.
So let me say before we part,
So much of me,
Is made of what I learned from you.
You’ll be with me,
Like a handprint on my heart.
And now whatever way our stories end,
I know you have re-written mine,
By being my friend…
Like a ship blown from its mooring,
By a wind off the sea.
Like a seed dropped by a skybird,
In a distant wood.
Who can say if I’ve been changed for the better?
But because I knew you,
Because I knew you,
I have been changed for good.
I truly believe in signs. That all of this happened for a reason, because life pointed me in the direction of everyone meaningful I’ve ever met. When I met Moose, his name kept repeating in the things I saw (like a street name, or on a bus, or my co-workers newborn had the same name and was announced just before I headed on my Christmas trip to San Francisco) and for some reason, my desire to go to San Francisco crossed paths with him and he showed me the world while I was there, an experience I would not have received if I had not taken the clues and followed my heart.
So I had to believe that the 10 days and beautiful moments spent with him happened for a reason. Life also brought the chapter to a close for a reason.
People come into your life for a reason, a season, or a lifetime.
When someone is in your life for a REASON, it is usually to meet a need you have expressed or just felt. They have come to assist you through a hard time, to provide you with guidance and support, to aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually. Then, suddenly, the person disappears from your life. Your need has been met; their work is done.
Some people come into your life for a SEASON, because your turn has come to share or grow or give back. They bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh. They give you great joy. Believe it; it is real. But only for a season.
Lifetime relationships teach you lifetime lessons—things you must build upon to have a solid emotional foundation. Your job is to accept the lesson, love the person and put what you have learned to use in all your other relationships.
Think about the people in your life over the years. Whether they were there for a reason, a season or a lifetime, accept them and treasure them for however long they were meant to be part of your life.
And when they are gone, be thankful for the gifts you received from them when they were here—for a reason, a season or a lifetime.
What life taught me through him, I have yet to figure out. But I trust, that the same signs will leave me to more beautiful moments and like how life ebb and flows, there will be more moments like these as long as I am patient and loving.
I can’t wait to experience life and what it is waiting to hand me, because though there will be dull and mundane moments, there will be the breathtaking ones that I will always treasure in my heart.
Thank you, Moose. You’ve been a gracious guest in my life.